well here i am at 3 am. writing in this blog about to say all i can in the time i have left before reality sets in there are 4 topics i would like to talk about since no one will ever read this so number one
1.Life. Good. World. Bad. Happiness. Illusion. Love. Elusive...Word association and the search for answers...
from my own personal expirience this is the truth about my life for some reason..life has a funny way of changing after you drive 120 mph into a wall and come out not dead this is the second day from the accident i still have nightmares about what happend i guess i always will my life has changed for the worst i fear but i do not want to belive that but yet there are so many things that change and i belive i will one day...

2.How a Resurrection Really Feels
my love life feel's like its going a million miles in every direction and i have no control over it but it all seems ok you do crazy things when you are in love but no matter how much you think its going wrong you cant help but feel the way you feel about her i am going out with a girl named brittney and i love her so much i dont ever think i could stop i never want it to end and hopefully it never will..

3.A Multitude of Casualties
problems with life well to start off my best friend is on drugs again and i want nothing to do with him he is messing up so bad he is i think 23 and he is in a motel with my old neighbor jessica she is 16 and i cant imagine what they are doing and i really dont care..i lost my job and will probably make it hopefully lol and my family members seem to die in order and at imperfect timeing..school is just getting way out of hand i have so much to do and i just dont know what to do i mean i know i should be doing it but i am just to bored of it and i just dont want to do it.. w.e.

4.An Attempt To Tip The Scales
in conclusion i think i should try to get my life in oreder even tho its been like 3 yrs so i will try to but it seems impossible but i will never give up i guess a word from a true visonary
"life is to precious to waste one day's and night's being sad,mad,depressed at the world so live everyday like it may be your last"
so im off oh what i am listening today..
the honarary title
ima robot
jimmy eat world
johnanthan rice
and..nada surf...